I’ve been known to stay awake at night singing a song in my head. The tune, lyrics, and percussion are valueless to my life but my brain gobbles it up. I can recreate every part in my head. Memorizing stuff for school is impossible. Memorizing stuff for my job is somewhere in between. The real stupid part is I was in band back in middle school, wasn’t great at all, but for some reason that’s my brains jam. Ain’t that some shit?

I don’t have any advice, I just feel your pain and hope you figure something out.