So when I was 12, way back like 6 years ago, I was in eighth grade (skipped a grade), I was in a group chat with my friends and we’d gotten each other’s numbers. We Zoomed each other too.

Anyway, let’s call this crush of mine, “Helen”. She was my best friend in sixth grade, but something awakened in me one night in eighth grade where I suddenly found her the prettiest, coolest girl in my grade.

She would act like we were best friends one minute, give me stuff, wanna hang out with me, compliment me, help me with school work, and even call me her “husband/hubby” and say we should get married.

However, the next, she’d act mean, snippy, and reject anything I did or said, but if her friends did the same thing, she’d agree and like it. Like one time, I asked if she wanted a grape. She said no, because I was the one who had the grape, but as soon as I gave it to “Beatrice” and Beatrice gave it to Helen, she took it because Beatrice gave it to her.

One time, we were on a field trip and I’ve seen her friends run up to her and say hi before, so I did the same thing. She got mad and told one of her friends I was a creepy stalker.

By the way, I’m neurodivergent if that matters and explains my behavior/treatment.

She doesn’t answer her phone barely anymore and most likely doesn’t wanna talk to me, so I can’t ask her myself. Plus, she’d deny it either way, she’s super Christian with internalized homophobia.