i deffo knew as a child and just didn’t have the words for it. and then being raised in a conservative area, i was hilariously malinformed about anything remotely queer.
i was probably late teens/early 20s when i finally started breaking down all the internalized shame bullshit. the catalyst was just talking to queer folk and going “o fuck it’s me”
community is really important.














i reckon it’s maybe an attempt at a new name for projectile vomiting? i know last time i got stomach flu was the only time i can remember making involuntary sounds while vomiting.