Where are you rn fellow girls?

  • Blazingtransfem98
    2·
    9 hours ago

    Stage 5. I have persistent and horrible dysphoria from my voice which I know will never pass as a girl without voice surgery. Which I’ll probably be unable to get for quite a while.

    Maybe I should learn sign language and say I’m mute. I’d rather be mute than have a horrible masculine ass voice.

  • kittenzrulz123@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    11·
    3 days ago

    Stage 5: I both know that I’m a girl and am consistently too depressed to do anything about it. Hrt is hard to get where I am and tbh I don’t have the energy to fight back against the world as they crush my spirit every day.

    • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldOP
      7·
      3 days ago

      Affirming my gender is necessary for me to have the energy to get out of bed. I was literally nonfunctional before I came out. Starting and staying on e has been the driving force in my life for the past year. Why fight for myself if I hate who I am?

        • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldOP
          4·
          3 days ago

          The only advice I can give is to look for support in your country. They’ll know what can and can’t be done. If you ever get the point of not being able to carry on, transition should be your only priority. At that point, you’d have nothing to lose.

      • First Majestic Comet@lemmy.blahaj.zoneM
        1·
        8 hours ago

        I mostly exist beyond this menial earthly scale but do on occasion return to anger and depression quite frequently. Mostly due to being purposefully misgendered. I’m not a girl, and not transfem, I don’t have a gender

        Denial was never a thing I went through, ever, I am indeed happy and comfortable with being called a boy, even though I’m not really. I still say I’m a femboy because that describes my experience of dressing up and being cute. Doesn’t mean I am a boy.

      • luciferofastora@lemmy.zip
        10·
        3 days ago

        Denial (“I feel comfortable being addressed and seen as a guy, so I can’t be enby”)
        Anger (“Why do people always ignore the ‘it’ in ‘it/he’?”)
        Bargaining (“I just care a lot about respecting pronouns, so that’s why I get upset. I’m just doing this to add to enby visibility, because I don’t really mind.”)
        Depression (“I suppose people just don’t like referring to humans with pronouns normay used for objects, that’s just how it is”)
        Acceptance (“Okay I definitely feel good about being called ‘it’, so I’m probably agender”)

        Bargaining again (“Maybe I’m some in-between? Not really cis, but not really enby either?”)
        Proceeds to cycle between Denial, Bargaining, Acceptance and Bargaining again, with Anger and Depression playing a constant tug-of-war as backdrop

        Insert meme of mother yelling at her kid “Why can’t you just be normal”, but it’s me yelling at my Identity “Why can’t you just be simple”

    • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldOP
      5·
      3 days ago

      No idea. I didn’t make the meme, but my guess is it’s a reference to a sliver of time in r/egg_irl’s history where every other post was Re:Zero themed.

      • First Majestic Comet@lemmy.blahaj.zoneM
        1·
        8 hours ago

        Oh yeah the whole thing with Felix. I remember that 😬.

        I’m not surprised that would make someone angry, as someone agender who does identify with the femboy experience it did make me a bit angry, especially when peopel said it made me a girl (egg prime directive wasn’t practiced much back then). Though thankfully things have gotten better these days (here I mean, not on Reddit, I haven’t touched Reddit).

    • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldOP
      9·
      3 days ago

      My ADHD got better after e, but I also needed to lower the dosage. If the dosage was too high, taking meds had an opposite effect.

      • flicker@lemmy.world
        4·
        3 days ago

        There’s a fascinating reason! Estrogen has a profound impact on your brain!

        In addition to being one of the main hormones that is responsible for regulating the female reproductive system, estrogen also plays a role in cognitive function. It modulates the neurotransmitters serotonin, dopamine, and norepinephrine. These neurotransmitters help with focus, concentration, mood, and memory.

        That’s why when a ciswoman with ADHD has a massive dip in estrogen (my body will essentially suddenly stop production of estrogen to trigger a period) their symptoms drastically worsen.

        And why a person taking e might find their ADHD symptoms lessen!

        • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.worldOP
          3·
          3 days ago

          Estrogen does so many things to almost every part of your body! It even improves liver functioning in a wide variety of animals, from livestock like chickens to humans of all sexes and genders. It makes you significantly healthier until menopause, where evolution effectively removes the advantages it provides. The same is probably true for testosterone lowering in males with age, as nature wants to take us out of the gene pool once we’ve served our purpose.