Today at work I was flipping some burgers as usual when a coworker yelled out to me “how to spell occupation” for some reason. She shouldn’t have even been on her phone and I don’t know why she asked me of all people to spell ‘occupation’ and why she needed to use that word in the first place is beyond me but that’s not important.
I tried to sound it out I just didn’t know how to spell it. There were like a bunch of other people they were all watching. I just broke down in tears then and there and ran to the bathroom. It was so embarrassing. I left like 3 hours early as I just couldn’t take being there anymore. I can’t stop thinking about it. I made myself look so stupid in front of everyone. I know I have to go back there soon but I can’t handle the humiliation and + I’m going to be in trouble with the boss for leaving early. I really don’t know what to do.
I honestly mean no offense when I say this and I hope you don’t take it wrong but you need to be seeing a therapist for your anxiety. This is nothing to be ashamed of and talking to someone trained to handle it will help you overcome it.
I was able to grow out of it but it took me decades to find myself and be comfortable with who I am. If I could go back I would have been on a regular schedule to talk to someone about my insecurities. Who knows the opportunities I lost because I was scared or embarrassed. Many of my regrets are from missed opportunities that in hindsight where caused by my anxiety.
You are not alone.