Resentment/fear of the right and the heteronormative social structure they (and to some extent all people) uphold, mostly. They’ve treated me like shit my whole life for multiple reasons, and will continue to do so no matter what I do.
I’ll be honest, I don’t want to not hate straight people and neurotypicals, but I probably need to.
It’s not that I’m better than them, it’s that I’m incompatible with their structures.
There are people I like, and I used to like most of them more, but after nearly 20 years of putting up with the right’s much stronger, much more persistent shit I’ve just been worn down in general. The positive matters less to the point of slipping beneath my notice, the negative matters even more and grows to dominate my life.
Yeah, dealing with customers is one thing but eighteen years of internet politics (and their real life counterpart) have just fucking broiled me. Not gonna stop, though, so I need to find some kind of new strength.