• freeusething@lemmynsfw.comOPMEnglish
          3·
          6 months ago

          Pretty good, was annoying that some of the guys just left the condoms on the ground.

          Got off afterwards thinking about how many orgasms I gave.

            • freeusething@lemmynsfw.comOPMEnglish
              3·
              6 months ago

              I don’t really experience orgasms during (I’ll use my wand to get off afterwards) but I don’t really want to cum during. Feeling a guy finish while in me is far better than an orgasm.

              Like, instead of orgasms, I’m seeking this kind of “sub space.” I become something that cis men use to get off, and it’s a state of mind that is so much better than an orgasm. I’ll fake it for guys to increase their enjoyment, but the physical sensation of orgasm is not what I’m seeking out at all. I can wand myself to orgasm whenever I want, but that feeling of presenting myself and taking a dick like it’s a wave pounding against me is better than any orgasm.

              • FluyOnTheWall@lemmynsfw.comEnglish
                1·
                6 months ago

                Can you describe how that subspace feels for you? Is it connected with your “thing” kink?

                Sorry if I’m asking too much, feel free to tell me to bugger off.

                • freeusething@lemmynsfw.comOPMEnglish
                  3·
                  6 months ago

                  It’s a warm feeling of euphoric bliss. Head empty, no thoughts. I just feel good. I am a toy that men use to relieve themselves. There’s nothing I need to worry or stress about, I am fulfilling a role as a sperm receptacle.

                  I just had a guy finish. I told him he could be rough, he held my waist and forced me into himself. He repositioned my legs, forced me lower to the ground. I was nothing but the feeling of his balls slapping against me. When he pulled out, he came on my ass. I was nothing but a cunt wiggling in the air that he could mark as his. I am an instrument for pleasure. My body is useful because I have warm holes that make men feel good.

                  It helps me a lot with depression and motivation oddly enough. I have guys that use me on breaks from work or I know hit me up on harder days, and I like thinking that I made their day better. I also get a break from my own mind for a while.